The Decision

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

I am at the brink of my limit. I keep raising my head, looking at the ceiling, trying so hard to smile. Just to keep these tears from falling. Just to keep myself from shattering apart. I don't want to break. I keep telling myself that. Because I know the moment I break down, I couldn't get the courage to pick myself up again. I wanted to be strong. How much I wanted to hold on. Yet these feelings overflows within me. No matter how I restrain myself, I couldn't do it. Maybe just this night, I may permit myself to cry. Maybe just this night, I may dry myself from these tears. Hoping tomorrow would be another day. Hoping tomorrow I could honestly face this world. Hoping the days after tomorrow I could finally pick the right words to tell you. How painful it is. How long I had been keeping this pain within me. How I pity myself for so long. How I wanted to be free.

This bird finally decided to break free from her cage. Even if breaking free means her wings would be badly wounded and she might not be able to fly for the rest of her life. Even if breaking free would only result her to an eternal despair. Even if breaking free only meant she has to leave the only happiness she has.

14 comments

  1. Whats wrong, my friend?

    Need to talk? I'm one YM away.

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  2. ehem... (riz here)

    sis.. ma emo ka :( ako din. wat happened.. usap tau.

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  3. 9me again sis.. (riz)

    ala me myspace.. hekhekhek.. meron dati. wala na ngaun. :P

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  4. Re: ehem... (riz here)

    Can I still be considered emo? In my opinion, I am already depression itself. >.<

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  5. I hope you feel better now.. (This is the most unusual mood that I have read so far..)

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  6. I may not know what you're going through but sometimes to be happy, we have to let go. Empty yourself. It helps.

    Stay safe and take care. :3

    *biggest hugggs*

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  7. You already know what my reaction to that is.

    *hugs*

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  8. Can you tell me what's happening? maybe I can help you know (just ym me XD)

    *hugs*

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  9. I guess everyone's depressed these days, huh?

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  10. Thanks for caring guys. *hugs back to everyone*

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  11. I had a dream, last night. You were in it. And we were both running away from something/someone - together.

    Together? I'm here.

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  12. Sometimes freedom is not really free. Ironically, to be free is sometimes more costly. Equivocal fallacy I know, but I think the point has been made. - Prize

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