Best In Thesis
Wednesday, April 12, 2006Best in thesis. Such pride and glory! Only a few were given the chance to be nominated as one. And guess what? We screwed. No matter how many times "you", yes you, repeat how you were so much disappointed that we were just a milimeter close to the prestigious branding, I don't care. Do you honestly think that that same disappointment didn't get to us? It did. Very much indeed. It came like a lightning that stuck us so bad that we wanted to wake up from that nightmare that instant. We broke a lot of hopeful hearts that night. Enough to leave us an unmendable scar of pain and regret. Why? The answer is simple. We lack the time. We couldn't catch up to the time no matter how far we ran. It seemed it was an endless road we were running to - uncertain of what's there for us at the end. That night - it was horrifying. We didn't know what else to do. How we wished everything would just - stop.
Everything went hell after and worst came that moment we heard we were supposed to be nominated for the "Best in Thesis" title and the oppoortunity just slipped by like a wind blowing to one's face. We were left only with the option to be just as cold and just like a natural anestisia to a woman giving birth, our natural we-don't-care attitude followed through. Well, actually, there was one person in the group who, after all that shit, actually "still" does and she really feels so much disappointment. Yeah, the kind that bests everyone's. She cried so much as to almost drain her deep dark eyes with tears. The silence of the room sounds almost deafening as her tears just flows endlessly. She raised her head and looked at us straight in her water eyes as her trembling voice softly told us, "Sabi ko na sa inyo eh." We knew, everything was our fault. And those words were the wick that slapped us to reality. And because of this, it affected our greatest pessimist of the group that resulted him to be sobbing his months away after defense. Sorrowfully feeling incedibly trashed out. The feeling of worthlesness haunted him each night to even think that he was never worth anything more than a "pabigat" to us. And also, insanely claims that he was the "sole" reason we failed. And what do I have left to say?
Putang ina.
How dare you laugh at us as if you were some higher being and we were merely peasants serving your land. Don't laugh at us like that when we gambled everything just for the sake of that stupid 3 flat grade. I want you to remember this, and remember it well enough to inject it to your system.
An empty vessel makes the loudest noise.
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ReplyDeletedang. sadness...
ReplyDeleteanother one of these :) we're all here for you euri!
ReplyDeleteLuv Bexxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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ReplyDeleteIf there's something I could do to perk you up, just tell me, okay? I'm sorry, Euri-chan. But I hope you understand that this is not the end of the world. ;)
Oh my, cheer up, okay, Euri? I agree with Najo. Anyway, you still have us affies =)
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ReplyDelete*pat pat*
Shame on whomever's fault this is.
At first I thought you're really talking with me. *sighs* Let's just say that almost all people experience that kind of could-have-been's. I have been in that situation myself. But I understand that the hardest part of your situation is that you are a group. A group that should've worked together. And inevitably, someone takes the blame or places the blame to someone for your group's downfall. But hell, you did your best. You said it yourself, you lack the time. Ahh, yes, you could've done what should be done if you weren't procrastinating or whatever, but --- your group did your best as a group. If others laugh at you, fine! But you went through tough situations together before, and you're gonna make it through this mockery together.
ReplyDeleteisa ako sa mga nanghinyang dude. alam mo naman yan eh. kaya nga inaaway ko kayo nung gabing dapat sa inyo na. hangang ngayon, dana! dapat sa inyo un! pero hindi naging kontrolado ang mga bagay bagay.
ReplyDeletetama ang sagot ko! i knew it. indeed, an empty vessel will make the loudest noise. bang!
hmm... copy paste kami...
ReplyDelete(pareho kasi yung pinaguusapan namin sa blog namin)
Chette: Look at any sporting event. A player falls, the crowd gasps,, tension fills the air. Then, after a few nervous moments, he rises to his feet and the crowd goes wild. He's back in the game and everyone's rooting for him! (Only when a player doesn't get up does the situation becomes a tragic.)
Philip: None of us want to fail. We want to do the right thing, make good judgment calls, pass those tests of our faith with flying colors, we have the best intentions, yet we can still fall flat on our faces.
Chette: What's our next move though? Do we just lie there on the field waiting for some 300 pound linebacker to drop-kick us into the locker room? Of course not.
Move on... you've got a long way to go
and as long as the sun is up do not lose hope.
An empty vessel makes the loudest noise.
ReplyDeletehala. sadness.. :(
I love you, I love you, I love you. ♥ I'm sorry things didn't turn out like they should have. But Najo is right - it's not the end of the world - in the end you'll all get the honor you deserve. Just be patient. In the meantime, you're the number one winner in my eyes. :)
ReplyDeleteThank you SO much for the award!! :D
ReplyDeleteSorry i havent drop by for awhile, I'm a bit busy... and i cant even update my site... ^_^ anyways... just wondering how are you these days? ^_~
ReplyDeleteeveryone wants to get that best in thesis award. but at least you know you did well and will definitely get an award for it. dont be too hard on yourself :]
ReplyDeleteas to your friend, find a way to cheer them up and tell them that 'kahit na hindi man nanalo, happy ka pa rin ako at naging ka grupo kita' honestly, i would say that :]
Hey euri! Here's a gift!
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i HATE THESIS.. they make lazy people feel horrible and im one lazy girl hehehe.. hope u'll feel better soon.. ^^
ReplyDeleteYour posts always make me stop and think :] Mmmhrm. Ily.
ReplyDeleteThesis lang yan. Pwede mong bayaran yung instructor nyo. Move on. Life is always unfair you know.
ReplyDeleteAla pang update so, answer ko na lang yung comment mo doon sa Love blog namin ni kuya Philip mo.
ReplyDeleteTrue ayaw nyang nag-bo-blog kaya nga every month kami nag update :P hindi every week
Although I can't relate much with what happened, I think your friends are right. You still need to move on. Don't let that bother you too much. You know, things like that happen for a reason -- everything happens for a reason. Who knows, maybe one day your teacher would kneel right upon your feet and just ask for mercy about something, ne? Cheer up. ^^;
ReplyDeleteIf your grammar sucked that bad in your thesis, it definitely shouldn't have been a surprise. GOD. It's awful.
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