Friday, December 26, 2014

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas everyone!

I have added all the goodies I got from Advent Calendars to my Christmas site now. I would like to extend my thanks to everyone everyone for their Advent Calendar goodies they shared this year. I had fun collecting them.

For all those who are collecting my Advent Calendar goodies, you can still request for them. You can request for the past dates, or even all, if you haven't started collecting them. But you can only request for them until the end of the year, December 31st, to do so. After that, I will remove the advent calendar to my Christmas site and you can't collect them for free anymore. Just like the usual, just send me an email for it.

Tuesday, December 23, 2014

What Colour Is Your Personality?

The colour of your personality is blue.

You are conservative, reliable, genuine, sincere, you take your responsibilities seriously, and you are trustworthy. People who are in need of advice are drawn towards your naturally calm nature. You tend to stay objective and do not personally get involved in any conflicts that your friends may have found themselves in. You say your piece, that is generally a fair statement to both sides and hope that the disagreement is solved. Drama is something you will go to great lengths to avoid.

Sometimes you can be portrayed as quite aloof, but you simply seek space to gather your thoughts and retreat to your mind. Remember, blue is often thought as the colour of intelligence. If you have a blue personality, you are more likely to utilize your mind, even if it means you day-dream more than others.  When you're quiet you are analyzing and thinking deeply about what is going on around you. You have a thirst for knowledge in order to gain wisdom and appear knowledgeable in whatever area interests you. You are not impulsive or spontaneous - you always think before you speak and act and do everything at your own pace in your own time and so, take time to process and share your feelings. However, some fail to  understand that you may just be reserved on the surface. When people gradually grow closer and push past your serious side, they often see a bubblier person. Popularity isn't generally important to you, you don't like to draw attention to yourself - you prefer to be in the background. However loyalty from your group is a must have. You are quite trusting of others although you are very wary in the beginning until you are sure of the other person. At the same time, you also have a deep need to be trusted.

To others you appear to be confident and self-controlled, but may be hiding your vulnerable side. You are generally fairly even-tempered, unless your emotions take over - then you can become either moody and over-emotional, or cool and indifferent. You are sensitive to the needs of others , especially with those close to you. When you want to be, you can be very sociable, but prefer the company of your own close group of friends. You like to stick to what is familiar to you and it is hard to sway you from your path - you stubbornly do things your way even if there may be a better way.

You can be prone to excessive worrying.

Thursday, December 18, 2014

Dropbox Cleanup

While cleaning up my Dropbox to free up more space, I found these!

They were from our old programming tutorials. We were relearning the basic programming algorithms and other things.

Those were really fun times.

Monday, December 15, 2014

Seasonal Gift Giving 2014

Hello everyone!

Winter is here! And so is Seasonal Gift Giving 2014.

For those who don't know, Seasonal Gift Giving is the same as Treat or Trick. You give leave people gifts to their "gift bags" and then it will be opened all the same time. You can go here to learn more about Seasonal Gift Giving.

If you would like to receive gifts from me, please leave your gift bag links to the following:
For those who wanted to leave me gifts, my gift bag is here.

Thursday, December 4, 2014

All Things Cute

Heather (babygirl from LJ) is back!

And she's re-openning her community, All Things Cute.

All Things Cute offers tons of graphic variations such as sigtags and blinkies. There are also contests and other fun games to join in.

I found her community months ago and thought that her graphics are really pretty, creative and cute! You might be interested in joining as well. If you do, please mention my username, nvr_existed, that I referred you. :)

Sunday, November 30, 2014

Fortuna Magus

A tower once stood near the stars, invisible to mortal man.

Inside lived an immortal
who embraced the solitude.

One day, the goddess of fate led
a man to the immortal's door.

Recognizing the immortal's loneliness,
the kind man befriended him, and visited him often.

In time, the immortal's frozen
heart began to thaw.

But the man betrayed the immortal, wounding him deeply.

Steeped in sorrow, the immortal vanished along with the tower.

The tears he cried formed
a mighty river that now separates the two.

This is a story of sorrow.
A recollection of the end.

The man crossed the river
and once more appeared at the tower.

In the traces of the aftermath
the man recovered the scattered shards of his heart.

Graphics in this post is by Asterism-m.

Friday, November 28, 2014

Winter Is Coming...

And so does my Advent Calendar this year.

Yes, I do plan on having one this year and I'm already working on it. It takes a lot of work to make. I'm trying my best to make it in time for December 1st.

Although I'm not a Christian, as you might've already known, I thought that doing Advent Calendars are fun and I get to share gifts with friends online. I did go to a strict Catholic school back in highschool so I know what Advents are supposed to be for. XD

Anyway, while waiting for my Advent Calendar to be up, My Winter Site and Christmas Site are up and running with loots for you to take as well.

Happy Winter!

Thursday, November 13, 2014

Pupe Died. :(

I haven't touched Pupe for a really long time. It seems the site did die as I had suspected. There have been no updates for a really long time now and people are losing interest in it.

I've been playing it for years and I'm not quite decided if I wanted leave yet totally. I still want to visit it from time to time to view at my old collection of dresses. I wonder when will it shut down.

Oh, btw, "11 Years Anniversary!" because Beyond Eternal will be 11 years soon, in a few days.

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Being Douche Doesn't Make You Look Hot.

Seriously, it doesn't. I do not see why people who actually thinks that acting all douchy would get them girls. The "bad boy image" thing doesn't work that way. It's more of an attitude kind of thing, rather than being a total douchebag.

Yes, there are a lot of douchebag that gets girls. But they don't get girls simply because they're plain ass douchebags. (-_-) Also, the girls you'll probably get are about the same. As they say, birds of the same feathers flock together. That or the girl is probably just plain stupid. Sometimes, she probably so much in love that she can't even see her own stupidity anymore.

If you wanna attract girls, you should start reflecting about yourself. Start by facing a mirror and ask yourself the question, "What is wrong with me?" You'll bound to find your answer. Because if one person doesn't like you, it's that person's problem. But if there are tongs of people who doesn't like you, then the problem most probably lies with you.

Think about it. It helps, sometimes, to reflect on yourself. It makes the world a better place.

Sunday, November 9, 2014

My New The Sims 4 House

Yay! My new house is done! Imma sleep nao~ XD

Thursday, October 30, 2014

Talk To God

The double standards of religion.

Monday, October 6, 2014

What Was Your Social Status in Your Past Life?


You were the ruler of the kingdom in your past life! You love to be in charge and command others. People respect you because you are confident and courageous. You are a noble individual with strong leadership skills. People admire how magnificent you are and address you as “Your Majesty”.


I was thinking I would end up with something like a village fool or whatever, but apparently, I was born for royalty! Now bow to me, my loyal subject.

Friday, September 26, 2014

Domain Updates

Finally! I have some real domain updates!

I have finally transferred by domain to a different registrar, and  I'm currently under the process of fixing my MX records so that I can receive emails soon. All I need to do is just wait until the MX records propagate the net. It'll take about a day, I think.

Onto the bad news, unfortunately, I've lost a lot of my website content since my site went down. According to my host, data from all my websites are unrecoverable. :( Fortunately though, they have kept a backup of my entire domain (I would like to think) with them, however, they're about a year old.

With these, I have still yet to decide whether to recover the files until a year ago and then moved on from there, or start again from scratch. I'll think about it this weekend, and probably come to a decision really soon. When I do, I'll let you guys know.

For now, let's hope for the best.

Thursday, September 18, 2014


I have finally gain access to my domain! \o/

Unfortunately, I do not know what's wrong with it, it still doesn't work. So, for the meantime, I'm redirecting my domain to this blog until I figure out what's wrong with it.

I'm so stressed about this domain that I literally wanted to turn over tables and smash vases. But, we should all keep a healthy environment and try not to stress about these little things. Good vibes, good vibes.

Redirection will propagate around 24/48 hours, I guess.

See you guys around!

Sunday, September 14, 2014

Progress Report

First, there are still no updates on my domain. I guess I'll just have to wait out a bit longer. I was hoping they'd have the site up by mid September, but it's already mid September and there's no progress at all. Adding to my stress, a friend's domain is expiring around next week, and I'm kinda freaking out about it because I was the one who recommended that hosting to her.

On a brighter note, I've finished all the siggies I'll be dropping to people's buckets for this year's Treat of Treat 2014 event.

I'll also be selling a series of Autumn siggies at my TSVP Sig Shop called "Tiny Fall" on which, as the name suggest, are a series of tiny fall siggies. I'll probably have one siggie posted every week, until the end of October. I'll be about 6 siggies in total, I think. I'll post more if my muse would let me.

After that, I will also be posting autumn related offers at Enam0re, and probably Gothiic Charm. Gothic and Autumn in one siggie is a bit hard to conceptualize, but I'll try to make something.

I've also started to reorganize my pixel gallery, but I'll probably take a bit of time, like weeks for it to get done since I do not have yet a concept of what I would want it to look like. But progress is in the way.

Oh, and lastly, I've started my random siggie gift giving project. I gift siggies to random people in a very random way, and at very random times. I do this to make people smile, and feel better just in case they're feeling down. I always to whimsical things like this because in truth, sometimes, I also wanted someone to make me smile on a really random day like I this. :)

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

10 Games Challenge

Tagged by: Bea

Rules: Don't take more than a few minutes; do not think too hard. They don't have to be the right game or great works of the gaming industry, just the ones that have affected you in some ways. Then tag 10 friends including me so I can see your list.

1) Suikoden series - My all time favorite game.
2) Tales of series - The series of games I swore to complete before I die.
3) The Sims - :3
4) Starcraft - For the Swarm!
5) Devil May Cry - It's only the rain. Devils never cry.
6) Final Fantasy Tactics - XD
7) Valkyrie Profile - Nibelung valesti!
8) Castlevanie: Symphony of the Night - What is a man? A miserable little pile of secrets! But enough talk... Have at you!
9) Pooyan - My favorite game as a kid
10) Bomberman - Boom!

Tagged 10 friends via Facebook.

Sunday, September 7, 2014

Trick or Treat 2014!

Hooray! Trick or Treat is back!

If you're not aware of what it is, to summarized it in general, this community is for sharing gifts to others in celebration of Halloween. You can go the community for more details about it.

Before everything else, this is my bucket for this year. If you wanted to leave me gifts for Halloween, leave it here. Please indulge me! LOL!

As most of you who knows me, this season is a super busy time for me. There's a lot going on and preparations to be made during this time. The priorities will always, of course, be my father's death anniversary, and the annual family graves visit for both my mother and father side, and the Halloween celebration. Since, you know, Halloween is something special for us darklings. It's a time where we get wild. Literally.

Since I failed to do so last year due to extremely busy schedule, I'll make them this year since I have more than a month to prepare.

I'll also make something special for those members of my love list and the communities I'm making at. These something specials are in addition to those that I'll be leaving in your buckets. But, you'll have to leave comments in particular posts so that I can keep them on track.

If you're a member of:
Please remember that these communities are members only, so you may not be see the posts when you're not a member or logged in into your LJ.

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

What Anime Girl Stereotype are you?


Friendly and sweet on the surface, the Yandere hides a dark and twisted character underneath their smile. While normally an amiable person to hang around with, if somebody happens to emotionally hurt them then they will have befallen a terrible fate. Yanderes are unstable, and become unhealthily obsessive with their friends and objects of desire to the point of doing crazy things just to please them; and then when other people come into the mix, the bitter, irrational jealousy begins. Beware of the Yandere, for they surely have psychotic tendencies.

Friday, August 29, 2014

Goodbye, Kuks

I remembered how you used to bark really loud whenever I get home. And as soon as opened the door and went up to the second floor stairway, you always jump around excitedly and wanted to play.

I remembered how you often want me to rub your head and smell my hand.

I remembered when you turned around and snubbed me, as if telling me that you don't wanna talk to me, that one time where I went straight to my room and didn't rub your head first as soon as I got home.

I remembered when I used to feed you when your mommy's going to be home late from overtime at work.

I remembered when I used to check your water as soon as I get home to make sure you're not dehydrated due to the extreme heat of the summer.

I remembered how you always love to run around the place whenever you're let out of your pen.

I remembered your fat cheeks.

I remembered your huge butt.

I remembered how heavy you were.

I remembered how you always peek at me in my room.

I remembered how scared shit you were whenever there's a cockroach near you.

I remembered a lot of cute things about you too.

I will always remember that little, sometimes annoying, and lovable housemate who lives in front of my room.

Goodbye, Kuks. I'll miss you. :(


Thursday, August 28, 2014

Fairy Godmother

We all have times when we are down and needed to let it out. We all have times when we wanted to be alone too. Honestly, I'm not really good at making people feel better. I'm always lost for words when I read friends blog entries when they blog about their depressions, their fears, and how hard they live their lives. This is because I know exactly how it feels and I know that whatever I may say, it wont really help much because when you're at that state, "people just don't understand" what you're going through. When people are wounded and in pain, they just don't hear anything else.

However, because I know exactly how it feels, at least, I wanted to be there for them and let them know that someone out there also feels the same way and/or knows how they feel and that they're not alone. Even though they reject them now, little by little, soon enough, they can open up to them. When their hearts finally stop raging, and crying, they'll be able to listen calmly and feel that there are people who actually cares for them with no strings attached. Even though it's just a small gesture, I hope it makes people feel a bit better.

I wish I was a fairy godmother so that I can make all these simple, honest, wishes come true. But I'm only human, and a friend and all I can do is listen when they're ready to speak.

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Flooded Room

So I went out of town last week, if you noticed, I wasn't around for almost a week. I went back to our house in the province to have a vacation. I like it there because everything is rural—no busy streets, no pollution, the country side are the best! I went offline since I got there. And, as you might've aleady known, I'm an occasional shut-in. And this is one of those times where I disappear from the universe just to lock myself up in my room and play PS games for an entire week.

Anyway, when I got back last night, I found my room flooded with water. Due to the bad weather and that there's something wrong with the drainage in the house where I'm renting a room at, the water went up about ankle high. It's not that high, but the water stayed for a few days and that I wasn't at home to salvage my things. I usually lock my room because the kids from the house where I'm renting room at are always playing with my stuff, and they usually mess up the stuff in my room.

I was bummed about it because 75% of my stuff are stored under my bed and they're all wet. Most of them are shoes. The saddest part of it is that my favorite boots got soaked and damaged by the water. And since it's a cheap synthetic leather, it was damaged beyond repair.

On a brighter side, my books and comics were all safe because I packed them all inside plastic bags when I was cleaning, and got lazy to unpack and arrange them, so I left them all in plastic bags.

Moral of the story, being lazy has it perks sometimes. LOL! XD

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Busy, Busy.

I've been crazy busy the past month from tons of things. I've been jumping here and there at work, trying to catch up with work related things. And during the few free time I get, I'm composing and sending tons of apology emails for my site that's been down. As of this moment, it's been two months now and running. I got a message from my host that it'll be up "soon." I do not know when that "soon" is, but I hope it won't take me another 2 months of waiting.

I never really got the chance to send emails to my affiliates. I think they're starting to remove me from their affiliates already. Aside from that, so far, I have received confirmation that there have been 2 sites where I collect cyberstamps from, who have already removed me from their collector's lists. As for the pixel sites, since I'm a member of TSVP and I've pretty much active in LJ pixel community, I've mostly informed people about what's going on in my site. All that's left is waiting for it to come back up, hopefully, soon, somehow.

Monday, August 11, 2014

After Midori

I'm trying to keep myself busy avoiding the depression from my loss of Midori. Somehow, the fact of it doesn't seem to have sank in until a few weeks later, when you start to miss her. Losing your pet you have been taking care of for 16 years is kind of, I don't know how to explain it better than the word, "depressing."

Honestly, it's kind of draining me mentally, just thinking about it. At first, it feels like it doesn't matter much, because you've been expecting that she'd pass sooner or later due to age, but when you start remembering those little things about her, you just can't help but be sad. I don't know how much longer I would have this feelings lingering but I try to cope up with it as much as I could. I've been through more than this when my dad and grandmother died, so I know I can make it through. I just need a little more time to sort myself out a bit and move on. Life, after all, is all about moving on.

Monday, August 4, 2014

Not Dead Yet

Hi guys!

I'm not dead yet! My site's still down, and yes, my email is bouncing back. I know about it, and I'm really sorry. I've already contacted my host and that they are already working on having it back up. Thank you for all the messages of concern. I felt like I had to post something to let you guys know, by the amount of messages I get from different communities I'm in.

If you need to contact me, please email me at nvrexisted at, for the meantime.

For the graphics, sigtags and blinkies, please just credit them back to, like usual.

Up-time, as of this moment, is yet to be certain, but I promise you that I'm not about to change my domain name not after more than 10 years. I'll try to leave a short message here about the progress, if there are any.

Thank you very much!

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Iguana Cliparts

Since my pet iguana, Midori, died a few days back, I've been looking for iguana cliparts for my memorial page of her. And here are the iguana cliparts that I've found around the web from all over.

Monday, July 21, 2014

The Secret Vanilla Patch

Did you know that the pixel forum, The Secret Vanilla Patch, has now reopened? If you're into pixels, please consider joining!

You get to meet and interact with really interesting people, get to exchange pixel tips and such, and sometimes, just every day conversations and randomness too.

The girls TSVP are really nice and being a member is a whole lot of fun!

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Artsy People

From the quiz What Type of Person Do You Attract?

You attract artsy people

The people who you usually see walking around thrift shops and coffee shops are the ones who seem to like you the most. They are constantly coming up with crazy ideas so you are never bored. Dating an artsy person can either be extremely frustrating or a lot of fun...or maybe both. In the end though you'll always have a sensitive, caring person to listen to you and give you some great advice.


So I attract artsy people, eh? They're mostly the minority bunch, aren't they? But I have to say, based from personal experience and opinion, they're the coolest of set of people I've ever met. They're sometimes moody, sometimes really crazy. Sometimes you can't predict what they're thinking, yet sometimes, they're very easy to read. You never get bored with them or run out of things to talk about. And they're pretty much open minded and accepting to a lot of things.


Friday, July 18, 2014


Goodbye forever, my love. :(

April 1998–July 2014

 Blinkie by Beyond Eternal

Sigtags made for me, in memory of Midori:

Made by Jacquelyn of Candy Coated Pixels

Made by Jennifer of Rosey Posey Pixels

Thursday, July 17, 2014

RIP Taiji

In memory of Taiji (X Japan) who died this day, 3 years ago...

Tuesday, July 15, 2014


If I smoke,
I would've been a change smoker.
If I could drink,
I would've already been an alcoholic.
If I fell in love with you,
I would've made you mine.
And if you ever leave,
I would've have killed you before you say goodbye.

Monday, July 14, 2014

Love List: Member Certificates

Here are my Love List's Member Certificates. If you're a member of my Love List, please feel free to use these images to display to your sites/blogs.

My Love List is here.

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Tuesday, July 8, 2014

Love List

Hello loves!

I'm currently thinking of starting a "love list" for graphic requests in the communities I make sigtags, blinkies, and occasional icons for. They are gothiiccharm and enam0re, respectively.

For now, I'm thinking of just having an exclusive list of special/ my favorite people in it. Those that are mutual friends with me at LJ are automatically a part of the "special/favorite people."  It doesn't cost anything, I just wanna know who are interested.

I made a separate post at LJ here, in case you missed it. So in case you are interested in it, please let me know by either commenting at the post or PMing me there.


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