I'm not a suicide hotline. I can never give you proper advice. But you know, you should stop saying your life is too painful and you wanna die.
All of us has each our own miseries in life. Stop being conceited and selfish thinking you're so special that your miseries are far greater than everybody else, because they're not. There are people who suffers more, and feels more pain than you do now. But even so, they try to smile as much as they can. They look at the world positively holding on to a hope for a better future carrying their pains with them.
I'm not saying that you shouldn't get emotional. We all do, sometimes. What I'm saying is that it's a big world, and there's a lot more things you could do than mop around feeling sad and pathetic for yourself. If someone hurts you, damn them to your heart's content, and live on the next day. Our life is too short to waste.
Don't think that, "It's easier said than done." Ram it to your head to, "Do it, god damn it. Do it for yourself."