Saturday, November 26, 2005

Pwede Ba?!

Anak ng puta naman eh. Kaya nga kayo binilihan ni mama ng kanya kanya niyong mga pc, para yun ang gamitin niyo hindi yung pc ko. Para san pang gumastos ako ng malaki - 512 RAM, GeForce 2, 100 GB kong pc, kung papagamit at papasira ko lang sa inyo noh. Namumulubi na ko rito, obvious ba? Kung pwede lang no, kung di niyo kayang ingatan ang pc ko, tantanan niyo na lang, okay? Kung gusto niyong magdownload, hindi ko naman pinagkakait ang internet sa bahay eh. Kaya nga ako nagpaWIFI diba? Para hindi kayo nagrereklamo. Pero sana naman, habang nagsisidownload kayo ng kung anu-anong hinayupak na games at MP3s, maalala niyo namang magscan ng pinagdadadownload niyo at limitahan niyo naman sa capacity ng pc ko. Hindi yung inuubos niyo yung 80 Gb ko sa kung anu-anong mga basura. Buti sana kung may pakinabang yang mga Maple, Gunbound, Gunz, Khan, MU, Neeed for Speed, NBA 2006, at kung anu-ano pang games na nilalaro niyo sa pang araw-araw na pamumuhay ng mga tao eh, kaso wala eh. Sana naman, matutu kayong gumamit ng pop-up blockers diba? Kaya nga may Yahoo, MSN, AOL toolbars ako diyan eh, para gamitin. Alam niyo ba kung gaano karaming adwares ang na scan ko sa inaraw-araw niyong nagiinternet? Pasalamat kayo, meron akong paid anti-spyware na tagasalo ng nga adwares niyo. Gaya na lang nung dati, umabot ng 5,000+ yung bills natin dahil sa mga spywares na nabuksan niyo mula sa Solomon Island (porn sites). Sus!

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Holloween 2005

Happy Holloween!

As usual, click and copy. :)

Tuesday, October 25, 2005


May layout na Tabulas ko sa wakas. Add niyo ako. ;)

Friday, October 14, 2005

Monday, October 10, 2005


Vote for me?

Vote for me at Diamond Web Awards? Please?


Then, might you want to join my fanlisting? Esu-chan (Precious) made that for me. Isn't she sweet? So, you want to join?

Saturday, October 1, 2005


I'm dying. T_T I need Yaoi that bad.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Judgement Day Scoreboard

On the judgement day...

Person: I'm ready to receive my judgement, God.
God: I know. I'm omni-everything, you know.
Person: ...
God: Do you believe in me?
Person: Yes.
God: Do you love me?
Person: Since you are God, lying would be useless, so no. I just believe in you because I'm afraid.
God: You know, I drowned an entire population in a mega high flood because they don't believe in me. I burned my creation in the fires of hell and let them suffer through eternity because they don't love me.
Person: God, you're ruthless.
God: How dare you, you infidel! I am your creator and you are merely a creation. Be thankful I even gave you your freewill to decide whether to love me or suffer the consequences of not loving me.
Person: God damn it, God! Do I even have a choice?
God: Thou shalt not use my name in vain. Didn't I wrote that in an ancient stone?
Person: Ooops...
God: Here's another one for you Satan.
Satan: Thanks God, you've been very kind.

Judgement Day Scrore Board
Day - 2
God - 0
Satan - 199,999,987,759,456

Tuesday, September 20, 2005


Hey, I'm still alive. I passed my supposed to be failing subjects. Hardwork pays off, really. But then, my grades were all 3.00. T.T I'm ruined. Let's see how things would turn out.


Saturday, September 3, 2005

Thank God!

This morning, I was watching "Men of Light", a Christian TV program where 3 priest preach things and relates them to the practical life. What caught my attention was, "Why do people blame God or the church for something they themselves caused." And so I ask this, why should God take all the credit for something we ourselves took effort into? Whenever something good happens to a Christian, the immediate reaction would be, "Thank God." When something bad happened, God won't take the responsibility to it. If you, as a person, won't take responsibility for your actions, my best advice is to blame it on Satan. You know, even though Satan's name would ring the very definition of "evil" to humanity, in my view, he's the kindest person. What the..?! Okay, imagine you are Satan. Since the beginning of time, whenever that was, you're shouldering everything that God refuses to take responsibility in. Can you imagine how long has it been and how many people sin for everyday?! Damn! Even you would get tired of it. But no, he doesn't. And even to this moment, he stayed behind God, as he had always been, shouldering Him. He's the wind beneath God's wings. If he doesn't exist, God is nothing. Just like in a typical movie, would you appreciate a movie without an antagonist? Of course not. It would be the most boring and insane movie ever if there would be one. You see, Satan is not really all that bad. If he is, God would be like... the worst. Hey, I'm not telling you to be a Satanist rather than a Christian. I'm just saying, take responsibility for your actions and take all necessary credits to. Don't credit God. It's worthless crediting something that doesn't even exist. It like throwing away money. If you don't get my point. You're an idiot.

And so people, should you fail something, blame yourself for your own faults. How dare you blame God for your faults! How very inconsiderate of you blaming something who doesn't even exists. Considering the fact that it was your irresponsibility that lead you to that situation.

Thursday, August 25, 2005


I went to college to peek on how my grades were and how many subjects I had failed this time. I haven't really got the results yet but assuming my grades, I would be expecting 4 failed subjects this tri. Yes, a lot. I always knew from the start that I would fail them since I sacrificed them for our thesis. The thought of not wanting to fail haunts me each night. Who ever want to see lots of 5.00 on their trascript, anyway? Yet at the end of it all, I have to choose between failing 4 subjects or failing thesis. I was left with no other option, so I chose thesis over the 4 major subjects.

Wednesday, August 24, 2005


Na immune na ata katawan ko sa RedBull. Hindi na kasi umeepekto ang dalawang bote ng RedBull sakin eh. Lagi naman ganyan eh, kahit hindi masarap, RedBull ang karamay sa puyatan. Yung ION, hindi ko pa na try so no comment ako dito. Pero yung ExtraJoss, parang lemonade lang eh.

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Pinoy Blagista!!

To Filipino bloggers, might you want o join this forum:

It's filled with kind people and they're Filipino!! ^_^

Tuesday, August 2, 2005




think I will fail my thesis...


Tuesday, July 26, 2005

SONA 2005

I'm lazy to do cross-posting. Just read it here:

Friday, July 22, 2005

If You Only Knew...

If you only knew how hard it is to live and drive yourself to go on with your life without any known purpose of why you should. But even so, living without a purpose is better than merely living for a narcistic and unlawful deity, whom you credit all the great things you've done where in fact, you were the one who did it in the first place and He just watched; and damn the ever so evil antagonist deity that He, Himself created and casted out from Heaven to make him look more like a protagonist in the battle of "good and evil" where good always wins.

If you only knew how hard Atheist strives to live equally in a country where everyone thinks of them as people who "doesn't think", "heartless", "demons", "manifestations of evil", "Satan-possessed" and so the list goes on...; and the pain of everyone you love leaving you only for the petty reason that they think you are "Satan-Manifested" just for not believing, haunts you each night.

If you only knew how hard it is to keep unbelieving when everything seems to turn away from you because of it.

If you only knew the great pain, you might have not survived.

Atheism is not a trend. Do not claim you are an Atheist when you do not even know what it is. Don't you even dare think, that when you are an Atheist, you are already considered as "cool." What kind of childish reasoning is that?

If you want to know what it is, then sorry. I am not the right person to do massive explaining. Aside from the fact that Patience is not my virtue, I am incapable as well. And just so because I am kind enough to help, I will recommend my dear friend Atheist-Seeker. Read his blog. You might find what you're looking for there. :)

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Beauty and Madness

I'm so sick and tired hearing Beauty and Madness. Okay, the song is nice but please, could you people play it at least just once a day?! I'm hearing it again as I type this. And I heard it for more than 15 times already!! *faints*

Thursday, July 7, 2005

What's Going on Inside

Slowly she drags the mouse close as she browses the silver laptop laid in front of her. He glanced through his notes trying to remember them for the comming quiz. She asked him to close and lock the door. And he asked why. She didn't say a word but smiled.


She: Where's your Windows Media Player
Moi: There.
She: Thanks.
He: What's that?! Porn?!
She: Shh...!!
Moi: It's just hentai, for goodness sake.
She: Hehe!
Moi: You're watching that again? Aren't you tired of that same of series?
She: I have no other options, do I?
Moi: I'll put more when I'm not lazy to.
She: Okay.
He: Let's watch it.
Moi: She always does.
She: Lol!
Moi: *reviewing*
BGM: Ah... stop... ah... don't...
He: It's too loud.
Moi: *ignore. still reviewing*
He: What's that?! What's he doing?
Moi: Geez! Just watch! You don't watch porn?
Him: Nope.
Moi: O.O Yeah right! You're a guy!
He: Why do you have to ask?
Moi: -.-
She: Keep it down. We'll get caught.
Moi: *sigh*
She: *watches*
He: *watches*
BGM: Ah... ah... ah... ah...
*knock knock*
She: O.O Someone's outside!
He: Close it, fast!
Me: -.-
Someone: Uhm, sorry. I just need to get something...
He: Sure!
*Someone left*
She: *clicks play button*
BGM: Ah... ah... ah... ah...
Moi: *reviewing*
She: ...
He: ...
BGM: Ah... ah... ah... ah...
Moi: I'm leaving.
She: Wait, let me finish.
Moi: Okay.
*movie clip was done*
Moi *left the room*
Someone: How did the discussion go?
Moi: What discussion?
Someone: You know... about...
Moi: Oh.. Nothing much. All they did was watch Hentai.
Somebody: Those two... *smiles*
Someone: *laughs*
Moi: *sigh*
*dean approaches*
Dean: How did the seminar go?
Moi: I didn't join.
Dean: You're not an officer?
Moi: No. (Even if I am. Shh...)
Dean: Oh, okay. Where are those two.
Moi: At the office.
Dean: Okay, thanks.
*dean knocks the office door*



Haha! Imagine how messy things went up inside the office when dean knocked the door!! Nyahaha!!

Moral Lesson: NEVER watch porn/hentai movies/clips etc. inside school premises.

Sunday, July 3, 2005

Claimed Another LJ

I claimed nvrexisted to keep anyone from using it. Lol! I was thinking of moving there at first, but when I found out that I have to import one entry after another manually, I thought twice. You could add me on that account if you like. I'll add you back. Just tell me you added me or else, I wouldn't take the effort on logging in that account. *lol*

Friday, July 1, 2005


I got an OpenID too! Credit goes to inggo for teaching me how to register my domain to it. :)

Add me if you like:

Sunday, June 26, 2005

Onii-san = EVIL!!

Onee-chan () is evil, I say. EVIL!! It's some yaoi issue with my Honey. Never mind me. Anyway, been sufing the net and found this link. Honestly, it's the most damn whole shit I've ever seen in my entire online life. Geez! I care not if the she's some popular bitch in the Net or even on TV or whatever. I do not know her. I care less to know. The point is, she should've been more creative on her blog. I don't care if she wants to make herself more beautiful in front of her fans but not to the entent of insulting other people and pointing out their defects or weaknesses just to make her look above them. Hypocrites are the greatest disgrace in the blogging world.

Thursday, June 23, 2005

Filipino Atheists Blogroll

Here I list blogs by Filipino Atheists from around the globe! The blogs listed are not entirely of atheism! Please visit them! :D

** If you're an atheist and wanted to have your website or blog be linked here, please leave me a note in the comment section of this post, below.

Groups in the Philippines:

Last updated: October 19, 2003

The Angry Theist

I've been an atheist for a year now. Wow. In commemoration of my first year in atheism, I've started a blog called, "The Angry Theist: Love me of suffer through eternity in the fires of hell."

Of course, I've added a warning/disclaimer:
Words of Caution:
This blog is owned by an atheist who doesn't have the heart for everyone, much more to the close minded. If you don’t like what you read, your best option is to leave. Please, spare her and save yourself from wasting pointless efforts in flaming and telling her that she damn well deserve to go to hell more than anyone. Read at your own discretion.

So why "The Angry Theist"?

It all started as a mere joke with my friends Ran-kun and Dexter that I should call myself an "A(ngry)theist" because I was often told that I'm only an atheist because for one reason or the other, I ended up hating God -- weather I had some cruel/bad experiences in life, or that my prayers/wishes were ignore/not granted. But despite that, I'm not actually mad at God. How could I possibly be angry at someone who I think doesn't exist? Wouldn't that be preposterous sounding?

With this blog with an offensive sounding name, I intend to blog about my opinions as an atheist, especially in this close-minded, Christianity infested, corrupted country where religion holds the neck of everyone even the government.

And with this, I'm also starting a Filipino Atheists Blogroll as link love for the endangered few Filipino freethinkers out there. You may leave me a message if you have a website or blog and wanted to be linked.

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Tama na!

Tama na! Ayaw ko na! Sawang-sawa na ko! Jeff. Jeff. Jeff. Jeff. Jeff. Puro na lang Jeff. Lahat ng gusto mo, ginagawa ko. Lahat ng iutos mo, sumusunod naman ako. Bakit ganon? Parang wala pa rin akong kwenta. Pag nakakakuha siya ng 5.00 wala kang sinasabi. Minsan lang ako nakakuha ng 5.00 kulang na lang patayin mo ko. Nung makakuha ako ng award, ang sinabi mo sakin, "para award lang ang yabang mo na." Sumali lang naman ako dun para sayo eh. Pero wala eh. Parang wala lang nagyari. Parang wala lang akong na achieve. Tapos siya, sumali lang ng contest, kulang na lang magpa-fiesta ka. Gaano ba kahirap para sayo ang sabihing "ay, may silbi pala ang anak kong to." Hindi ko namang hinihiling na puriin mo ko eh. Gusto ko lang naman...

Tila matanda na ko para magdrama ng ganito. Batif ko yon pero, hindi ko na maikubli ang nararamdaman ko. Kailangan kong ilabas. Kung hindi, sasabog ako. Sa mga oras na to, damang-dama ko ang naramdaman ni Uchiha Sasuke noon. Siguro yun din ang isang dahilan kung bakit ayaw ko sa kanya. Kasi, pareho kami - pathetic.

Monday, June 20, 2005

Twilight Drifter [v4] Elegance

New layout! Twilight Drifter [v4] Elegance. Image from Boyis. Yeah, I didn't do much to it. I don't want to I'll just ruin the beauty of it when I try to do a manip of it..

A few possible reasons why I've been too much of a pervert lately might be that (1) I'm sick. I got a flu. I'm in terrible heat! Lol! (2) I haven't been watching any porns lately. I have no time. (3) Tenjho Tenge pushed me to think that way. (Go blame it on the anime!)

Speaking of which, I've seen the entire anime! And my rating goes 7/10. Minus 1 point for undetailed sexual content, another point for the only thing I could see are panties! Damn it! And the another point for not completing the story til the end.

Sunday, June 19, 2005

Disturbing Thoughts

This is feeling is a bit weird. I don't know what's into me lately. These past few days, whenever I see 2 guys together, I think of them in a sensual disturbing manner. First, I saw two man chatting by the school grounds. What came into my mind was, "they were discussing something private". And I laughed at myself for the stupid idea. Then after, I saw another 2 man hiting each other, where the other is sitting above the other, spanking him. "They'll start licking each other later." was the immediate thought that came to my mind. Then after a while, a lot more stupidity came into me as the day passed.

And later on, I realized that it starting to be really disturbing as to all I could think of is sex, yaoi, and yuri. T.T

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Cover Letter

First, it was an empty resume. Now, a cover letter?! *sigh* How could a pessimistic person such as I, could make a reasonably promising cover letter such as this on which I honestly admit that I do not know what to write. Being a graduating student and the need of you to make resumes, cover letters, proposals, etc. are killing me! I hardly had time for myself and my usual hobby of reading blogs, Naruto, Yaoi, Yuri, Hentai, Gackt, Hyde, and other more things a regular stoical person do.

I want my life back!!

Tuesday, June 7, 2005

Xanga Layout Blues

All I want is a neatly coded Xanga layout which is both simple and elegant looking. Why does it take me real long to find one that suites my taste?! I know, it's my fault that I'm too lazy to make a Xanga layout! My point is, I don't use my Xanga much (Actually, I don't use it at all! I only have it to comment to a friend's Xangas.), why should I even spent too much time to make a layout of it!


This is frustrating.

Monday, June 6, 2005

Save The Best For Last

Yes, medyo nagbalik na ko sa katinuan ko. (Salamat naman.) I went offline for days to rest myself off my frustrations. I was not totally offline, actually. I was online but in hiding mode. I just wanna be alone for a while, that's all.

The songs tells my story. It was both sad and heart warming. I never thought of it that way. It just mae me reflect on it when I finally heard the song after a really long time.


Save the Best For Last
By Vanessa Williams

Sometimes the snow comes down in June
Sometimes the sun goes round the moon
I see the passion in your eyes
Sometimes it's all a big surprise

Cause there was a time when all I did was wish
You'd tell me this was love
It's not the way I hoped or how I planned
But somehow it's enough

But now we're standing face-to-face
Isn't this world a crazy place
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last

All of the nights you came to me
When some silly girl had set you free
I wondered how you'd make it through
I wondered what was wrong with you

Cause how could you give your love to someone else
And share your dreams with me
Sometimes the very thing you're looking for
Is the one thing you can't see

[Repeat Refrain]

Sometimes the very thing you're looking for
Is the one thing you can't see

Sometimes the snow comes down in June
Sometimes the sun goes round the moon
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last

You went and saved the best for last, yeah.

Saturday, May 28, 2005


My life is dead boring.*kicks anything* I have no Internet connection at home. Someone screwed up our modem. *sigh* Just dropping by to let you people know. Just in case you asked, where the heck did Euri go? Lol!

I'm posting this at school. Was suppose to do researchers until I got board of it and decided to post. (Bad student.:P)

Monday, May 23, 2005

My hands hurt!

My right hand hurt! It's because of the freaking checks I have to finish tonight! Imagine youself issuing 19 checks all at once and later on, make a report out of it in hand. And guess what, I have to make a duplicate of that report also in hand. It's because my freaking printer ran out of ink! If it didn't I could've just typed that report and print it. I could even provide more than 5 duplicates, if they want to! Too bad, hindi marunong makisama ang printer ko! :'(

Saturday, May 21, 2005


OMFG!! OMFG!! *calms self*

Last night, I had a dream and Gackt was damn there! *drools* I was watching him, while he does his video shooting. And then, he took his polo shirt off and faced me. *dies* I was staring bad at him (who wouldn't be? Damn it! Have you damn seen his gorgeous body?!) and the next thing I know, he was approaching me. He dragged and warp his arms around me and kissed me. (OMG!! OMG!! *dies again*) And it wasn't just a smack nor a peck! Damn! I would more than willing to exchange romantic kisses with him all night!

Friday, May 20, 2005

Istorya ng Buhay

Kadalasan, pag sumusulat ako, binabase ko yun sa mood ko. Kung medyo hindi ko trip ang magsulat, hindi ko na itutuloy. Lalabas kasi siyang panget at minadali. Pero tulad ng ibang pang manunulat, ang bawat istorya na isinusulat nila, ay may lihim na istoryang nakabaon sa loob. Minsan, may pagkakataong meron nakakatuklas nito at nasa manunulat na lang iyon kung aaminin niya o hindi. Inaamin ko na lahat ng isinulat ko ay may lihim na istorya na parte ng aking buhay. Bahala ka na nga lang isipin kung ano yun. Aaminin ko naman kung tama ka o hindi eh. Bat di mo subukang itanong sakin. ;)

Sunday, May 15, 2005

Naruto, Out of Stock?!

PUTANG-INA!! Naubusan na naman ako ng Naruto!! *cries* Nakakabitin naman eh! Out of stock na naman daw ulit so I have to wait another week. :( The world is cruel to me. *cries*

Friday, May 13, 2005


Damn it! You got off the car first so I expect you to get to the college first. But know, you chatted with your friends. I let it slide since they are your friends. Instead, I waited for you upstairs. and guess what? I waited for ages in this damn hot weather. And when I finally got myself down to see what the fuck is taking you so damn long, I saw you playing Gungound at some damn internet cafe below?! Damn it! I could hardly breathe upstairs! You know I can't stay up to a place so freaking hot! I'll collapse! Damn it! Look at what you did! I'm throwing up again. This vomiting seems so endless for me! Damn it! Can't you be responsible enough? How could you call yourself a brother? Mom should call you useless more than she calls me. But to her, I'm more useless that you are. And this makes me feel pathetic.

Look here, and read well. Since I got to this hell of a place living my life with you, I promised myself that I WILL surpass everything you do. I mean everything! I'll show you that I'm better than you at every possible way! And you deserve to die more than I do! And guess what, I'm kind of doing well with it. The only bad side I got is when I failed a subject. But comparing to the fact that you failed more than I had, I kind of relieved.

Sunday, May 1, 2005

You May Not Realize It...

Think about this...

You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you don't even know exists, loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

Acctually, this is a chain letter I saw while browsing the net. I remove the chain part of it because it's damn lame. And chain letters aren't a bit true.

Saturday, April 30, 2005


WTF?! Could anyone explain how I got to this result?! -.-

My life is rated R.
What is your life rated?

Things I'm at:
+ PC
+ TV
+ PS2
+ Music
+ Beyond Eternal
+ Soul
+ Lost Perception
+ DA
+ Twilight Drifter
+ GJ
+ Xanga
+ Tabulas
+ Myths
+ Atheism
+ Nihilism
+ Anime
+ Ken Hidaka
+ Weiss Kreuz
+ Lemon Fanfics
+ Yaoi fanfics
+ Yuri fanfics
+ Hentai
+ Lust for Gackt
+ Lust for GacktxHyde
+ Dir en Gray

This is absurd! Which part are considered Rated? :P Everthing I do is what normal people do. (Okay, slightly going beyond the boundary...) *lol*

Thursday, April 28, 2005


Indeed, you are 79% erudite, 62% sensual, 33% martial, and 87% saturnine.
Anubis was the Egyptian
God of funerary rituals and the protector of the dead as well as the
judge of souls and ruler of the underworld. Since it was his duty to
weigh souls (along with the Goddess Maat) as a means of discovering the content of honesty, Anubis was also the God of truth.

He is usually seen as a man with the head of a jackal holding the
divine sceptre carried by kings and Gods, but he can also be found on
the walls of tombs as a black jackal or dog accompanying Isis.
By no means an evil God, his domain of graves and tombs was
nevertheless a frightening one, but then, one that offered the chance
of an afterlife.

The God of the dead is probably associated with the jackal due to the
habits of jackals to lurk about tombs and graves, which was one of the
reasons why the early Egyptians sought to make their tombs more
elaborate; to keep the bodies safe from the jackals. It is only natural
therefore that a God of mummification would be connected with them. By
worshipping Anubis, the Egyptians hoped to invoke him to protect their
deceased from jackals, and later, the natural decay that unprotected
bodies endure.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 60% on erudite
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 24% on sensual
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 2% on martial
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 95% on saturnine
Link: The Mythological God Test written by Nitsuki on OkCupid Free Online Dating

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Beyond Eternal

Remember my ever-loving domain, Beyond Eternal? I'm buying it back! :) Yey for me!! ^_^ And I will go back to Beyond Eternal.

Now, what would I do to Takipsilim then? Suggestions?

Sunday, April 24, 2005

Gackt x Hyde ~ I Died...

The moment I came to see THIS, I died! Damnit! *drools* See for yourself! Besides this, I also got a yummy Yaoi pic of GacktxHyde. Too bad, it was just photo-manipulated. It's worth looking at though. (See this entry for the pic.)

Yes, I'm Still Alive.

It had been a while since my last post. Yes. I am still alive and I had survived. I was at the end of rope clinging to the last bit of sanity I had left in me. Thesis B is coming and I still have 2 other excess subject left out. Geez! What the Hell am I going to do with this life? To add, I haven't been really fixing up Takipsilim. I could say that the layout is very simple yet eye cathing indeed. The point is! It's in shambles, damn it! And I can't fix it!

Monday, April 18, 2005


Nakakapraning talaga ang pag-aaral. Kaya naman ang motto ko ay, "Nakakasira ng barkada ang pag-aaral." Praning na nga, lalo pang napraning sa Thesis A. Ang resulta? Nag picture picture ako. *lol*

Ayan. Yan na yung isa sa pinakamatinong mukha na meron ako. Pasensiya na ha. Panget talaga tayo eh. Actually, may history yan eh. Nung kapanahunang nagsabog ng kagandahan ang Diyos sa mundo, absent ako. Kasalukuyan kasi akong natutulog nun. Batugan eh. Ganyan talaga ang buhay... :P

Sunday, April 17, 2005

Lagi Na Lang...

Lagi na lang ganito. Ano ba to? Para konting bagay lang magagalit. Hindi muna hayan mag explain yung tao. Para avatar lang eh. Sus naman. Pinalitan ko naman yung avatar ko nung sinabi mong ayaw mo si Gackt ah. Hintayin mo lang kasing magload yung picture ko.

Tignan mo tuloy. Mapapagalitan na naman ako niyan kasi nakikinig na naman ako ng Metal na pagkalakas-lakas. Hindi ko kasi makalma sarili ko pag walang yun eh.

PS: For the nth time, HINDI BAKLA SI GACKT!

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Shinobi (Ninja) Exam!

I am a bit too obsessed with this Shinobi Exam at Tsubasa Boards. Sheesh! The last time I got this obsessed was when I saw Camui Gackt for the first time and fell for his beautiful face, crystal-like eyes, sexy bodyand enchanting stare! *lol* ^_^ Anyway, I'm now an ANBU+! Yey! I wanted to be a kage (Kazekage to be exact) as soon as possible! So please! I beg you! Join the boards so that I may get myself promoted! *lol* ^_^

Saturday, April 9, 2005

Ninja Exam!

I just entered myself in Tsubasa Board's ninja exam! LOL! Interested? Go register for the board! ^^

Wednesday, April 6, 2005

Horay! It still worked!

Horray! My Flash drive still works! I had it died the whole night! Actually, kalahating oras ko atag tinutuktok sa kamay ko yun para lang lumabas yung tubig. :D And it worked. I had it dried to the electric fan the whole night. :)

Tuesday, April 5, 2005

Stupid! Stupid!

Stupid. I'm so stupid. :( *whacks self* Damn! I forgot my Flash drive at my pocket and I found it soaking wet in the basin baside the washing machine. XP I haven't tried if it would still work. I don't wanna try. I'm scared knowing that my 2,000 went to waste because of my stupidity. :(

Sunday, April 3, 2005

Failed Domain Transfer: Behind the Story

Since a lot had been asking and I don't have that time to reply one by one. I'll post what happend to Beyond Eternal - in details!

Once upon a time....

There came March, I went to my host and ask when will my domain contract expire. He said that it'll be on March 31. And since I was very much exited to tranfer hosting, I already paid Rem (my friend) my dues for the domain and site hosting for the next contract (April 2005 to 2006) to avoid problems. I already contacted my previews host that I wouldn't renew my hosting to his company anymore and he said yes. And so the transfer request was sent to my previews host. We had been waiting 2 weeks for his reply. When I couldn't wait any longer (yes, patience is not my virtue), I went to ask him and he said he deleted the transfer request thinking it was a spam! (Geez! Talk about pain in the ass!) He ask me to ask my new host to send the tranfer request again. My current host said, we'll be short of time. The only option is to ask him to change my domain's registered e-mail to my own instead of his. (Another problem we encountered. My domain should be registered under my name since I was the one who paid for it! Just in case, you might want to check your domains at as well.) I went o his office, they said he went out for a while. So I waited patiently for him for hours! 4 hours to be exact. And guess what, he didn't came back! I went home and get myself online. I saw his YIM online so I PMed himtelling him to change it. And he did. Then, I thought everything would go out well this time. But to my surprize, he locked my domain. I just found it out when my tranfer request failed. My new host even mailed me saying he locked that domain. I went, "WTF?! What the hell is this?! @#$*!..." and I tried to contact him for days, too bad, I couln't. When I finally saw him online by chance, I immediately asked him to unlock my domain. And again, he did. (He should, damn it!) And when we send the transfer request again, it was too late. For a domain to be tranfered, I should send the transferer request at least 10 days before it expires. And adly, it was just 3 days left when I finally asked him to unlocked it...

And I lived pissed off forever!

Saturday, April 2, 2005

Losing Beyond Eternal

Losing Beyond Eternal is like losing my life and my dream...

Friday, April 1, 2005

Beyond Eternal's Last Day

I could no longer retrieve my domain, Beyond Eternal, as far as a month and a half or 45 days. This is because when I was transfering my domain, my current host locked it. When I finally asked him to unlock it, it was too late. The again, since I already paid for the hosting of that domain ahead of time, I asked if I could just register a new domain and they said I could. So it was decided then. How does sound? Diwa is a Filipino word which meant the soul of something; it's essence; it's significance.

On the other side of the story... *big wide grin*
I found 3 pairs of Naruto Key Chains at the mall!!

Btw, new layout! It' Gackt! ^^

Monday, March 28, 2005


Did you ever know that the story of the fallen angel, Lucifer, a.k.a. Satan never was written in the original texts of the Bible? It was the same with Mary, giving birth to Christ a virgin. Interested in details, read this. And this site, urge me more to want a copy of this book and this video.

Saturday, March 26, 2005


I'm getting to the greater part of Naruto. I can't watch it on tv since my classes are on the afternoon, so I bought myself the entire set of it's series! It was so damn good! I had reached to the point where Itachi and Sasuke meet at last! Damn! Itachi's hot! Even though he seems like a lunatic to wipe his entire clan out, he's one damn hot ninja!

Thursday, March 17, 2005

Moved Blog

I installed a WordPress and will move my blog there. Yes, I haven't done so because it need a lot of time. All blog, jounrnal, diary links will be moved there as well. :) If in case you are interested to get your name listed there, just tell me. :)

PS: I will only add those people I know.

Monday, March 14, 2005

My Sassy Girl

I watched the movie for approximately 2 days. Because I couldn't watch it straight the other day. Anyway, my first reaction to the movie was, "Poor guy." But hey, he's one of a kind. I was slightly disappointed because the story wasn't the exact one I was expecting. It's not that I didn't like how the story went or the story per se nor I couldn't relate to it. In fact, I could - very much indeed. Although I think, I just expected too much of the movie and it just turned out the "usual" kind of movie I watch. But on over all, I loved the movie, enjoyed myself laughing on the poor guy.

Crediting agnosticpilgrim for lending me his copy.

Saturday, March 12, 2005



Damn it! Why are you so damn stupid not to open your e-mail for one whole damn week?! You got a mail from JITSE and you just lost one damn good opportunity! It's not that I'm expecting anything like you passing the exam, I just want you to be in the damn seminar! I care less of the certaficates you might earn as well. I just want you to LEARN more than what your useless school could offer. (Okay, so your school have nothing to offer, my mistake to mention.) And because of your tremendously stupid self, you just missed the best way to take advantage. Today is the seminar and you're suppose to be one of the reviewing students! P9,000 is just small, I could even manage to get the money for you and all you need to do is follow up the damn application I had submitted and you still failed? You are old enough! Be responsible! What do you plan on doing after gradutating? You failed Elective 01, what is that subject anyway? It's just Oracle yet you failed. I let it slide and just encouraged you to study more. Now, you did it again! Your remarks is just as bad. I was hoping you could maintain 2.25 as your lowest grade yet you got 2.75 in Calculus and last tri, you just got 3 flat from IRM. What's gotten in to you? Excert a little more effort! If you fail any of your subjects this time, you will never achieve anything.

So much disappinted,

Read your exact e-mail from JITSE yourself!


Subject: Endorsement to Prospective Sponsors of AMA Applicants for JITSE Review
From: Global Pinoy

Your name has been included among those endorsed to prospective sponsors for possible subsidy of at least 50% of the review fee of P9,000 which includes the cost of textbooks / review materials.

The prospective sponsors are several Japanese companies inside Clark Special Economic Zone and the Rotary Clubs in Angeles City, Mabalacat, Magalang and San Fernando.

If you are able to take the JITSE review program to be conducted by Global Pinoy Consultants (GPC) on March 11 – May 21, 2005 at the STI-Angeles, SPC Bldg., Miranda Ext., San Nicolas, you will tremendously increase your chances of passing the Japanese IT Standards Examination (JITSE) and consequently acquiring an internationally-recognized certification of competency on the fundamentals of information technology.

By being JITSE-certified, you practically have an edge in getting employed in multinational companies here and abroad, especially in Japan where the JITSE certification can facilitate the issuance of a working visa.

If you prefer an easy installment plan, 50% may be paid upon enrollment which hopefully could be subsidized by a sponsor and the balance payable in three equal installments on or before each of the three periodic mock exams during the review period.

As special incentive, GPC shall shoulder the exam fee of P1,500 for those passing the mock exams during the review. Those failing the mock exams or the actual May 22, 2005 certification exam will be allowed to sit in free-of-charge with the next review class for the October 9, 2005 examination.

We hope you will not miss this chance to prepare yourself for the professional world of the global Pinoy where bigger and better opportunities await you – with or without subsidy from a sponsor which should be known through your college dean by March 9th or 10th at the latest.

Indeed, a worthwhile investment in time, effort and money for a brighter future for you!

Rem LeaƱo, Project Manager
JITSE Review Program (Pampanga)
Global Pinoy Consultants

Sunday, March 6, 2005

YIM Jerk

I had a conversation with someone at YIM. He's supposed to be my bro's friend's brother on which I care less to know.

Translations in (parenthesis)


Person: hi!
Euri: Hello. ^^
Person: Astig website mo ah. (you're website is good)
Euri: Which one?
Person: Beyond Eternal.
Euri: Thanks.
Person: goth kba? (Are you a goth?)
Euri: huh?
Person: sb ng bro ko, goth k daw. (My brother said, you're a goth)
Euri: ...
Euri: what is your definition of goth then?
Person: ung mga taong mahilig sa black. (People who likes black)
Euri: I'll add you tomy list of misguided people.
Person: nbsa ko pla ung profile mo (I read your profile)
Euri: ...
Person: palagay ko hnd. kc mahilig k sa mudvayne. (I guess you're not. Because you like Mudvayne)
Person: r u a girl?
Euri: yeah.
Person: ah.. (Oh..)
Peron: hnd kc natural sa babae ang mahilig sa rock. (It is not natural for girls to like rock musics.)
Euri: what do you want me to listen to? Classic songs?!
Person: hnd nmn (not really)
Person: para kacng ka2iba. hnd bagay sa babae ang nakikinig ng rock. [it seem different. listening to rock musics aren't suitable for girls]
Euri: Since when did rock music been limited to only guys? I think you should walk around the town more.
Person: bkt nmn (why)
Euri: ...
Person: turuan mo nmn akng gumawa ng site. (teach me how to make a website)
Euri: Sorry, too busy.
Euri: I have to go. I have class.
Person: cge (sure)
Person: bye

-- I logged out --

Okay. I don't know if this guy's a weirdo, a freak or I think just either needs a good 'ol whack from me, an IMMEDIATE brain repair or a MAJOR re-education. Rock musics aren't only for guys and not all people who wears black are goth! *stressing* What kind of youth are we leaving these days?! Sheesh! Good thing, this guy's the 3rd person I know who thinks like this. The other 2 are girls. Gosh! I demand a seminar about this stuff too! People needs to be well educated.

Saturday, March 5, 2005

A Five Minute Conversation

It was just a five minutes conversation. Still, I had the chance to talk to him through YIM just a while ago. He already left and said would be back after 30 minutes but I do not need to wait for him. We was mad at me and told me someone sent him a text message (SMS) using Chikka and told him that that certain person saw me with a guy. I was shocked to see I haven't gone out with any guy (besides friends) since we broke up. So what was that? Someone's stabbing me from my back again, I suppose. I was suppose to be angry about it but why am I happy? Is it because I found out that he still cares? Or at least I wanted to tell myself he does.

agnosticpilgrim said, I was stupid. And all other friends says I am. I guess I seem that way. But my heart says that I'm not. And I had convinced myself that I'm not. It's just that they don't understand. They don't know how I feel... I promised... and I would hold on to it.

Monday, February 28, 2005


Sorry LJ for this post... :P

I was planning, yet haven't fully decided on moving to GreatestJournal. Why? Simply because LJ ang GJ are practically the same (yes, even codes!) with GJ giving everything within LJ for free and this includes Image hosting (gallery of your own). I have my own account already though I haven't officially posted anything yet. And of course, I could have my name, Euri all for myself. :D

To my friends,
Please add me if you find yourselves there too. ^_^

Friday, February 18, 2005

Nice Girl would never cease to entertain you. What Kind Of Webmistress Are You?

Comments? Rude ones, bring it on! *lol*

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

I Drew

Because even at school, I don't have a life, I drew. Did it yesterday afternoon while waiting for my last subject. (And we dont have a class, great. I waited for nothing.) I haven't drawn for quite sometime so bare with it. I'll put the image down after a week to avoid people taking it without consent. XP

[Took the image down.]

My Monitor Jammed

Hate rants? Leave! Pasaway na kung pasaway! I don't damn care! Yes, I'm a bad ass. Are you any good? You're just as bad as well! Maybe worst! Blah!

Caution: Rant ahead!

As the title says. *sigh* Can't believe this! I don't think I could live a day w/o touching a PC! *sigh* XP I'm dying! The last of my decaying mind slowly turns itself to dust as the wind blows it away... far to no one could ever reach it. Okay, so I'm exaggerating. Blah, blah! I'm going nuts! I want my PC fixed. With it, I hardly have the life. Imagine me without it! *sigh*

Sunday, February 13, 2005

Valentine Treat!

Valentine is near, here's a gift for you. Please link it back to

This Meme is amusing. ^^ I really liked the results though not all matched. Intrested to take it? Try it here.

LJ Friends Meme by coolerq
1. You must tell 1 people about this game.
2. Sera is the one that you love.
3. Ken is one you like but can't work out.
4. You care most about Lanie.
5. Khei is the one who knows you very well.
6. Nhellhiey is your lucky star.
7. Beautiful Alone is the song that matches with Sera.
8. First Love is the song for Ken.
9. I Need You is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
10. Because I'm a Girl is the song telling you how you feel about life

My comments

1. Need not, my wish will never come true.
2. It hit me full time!
3. He's undeniably too sexy, I couldn't resist! *drools* And of course I wouldn't have him, he's an ANIME!! Duh!
4. Sure! she's by bestfriend!
5. Hmm... I'm not sure about this that much.
6. Lucky star? More like a "lazy star"! Lols!
7. Strike 2!
8. Nah! That song was for Sera too.
9. I guess.
10. It does? I think man are complicated? I guess not. Most of those I know are easily read. Or Am I a man under my skin? *lol*

Tuesday, February 8, 2005


The other night, I had a serious conversation with a friend who turned back to Atheism for reasons I need not state. The words, "I was envious of them. I tried to fool myself but it turned out I couldn't.", he left me caused my once healed wounds to bleed again. My path once again lead me back to the route I passed two years ago. Did I took the wrong side of the road before and was again given another chance to chose between two roads once more?

Friday, February 4, 2005

"I forgot..."

I had come to realize that not all people could comprehend my manner writing. Sad that only a handful people could. But it's best for some, because feeling are shown for only a few who could have the heart to them.

Dawn will soon come my way as I still keep myself awake. I hate to stay up but Pain hunts me again. "I forgot..." sharp blades that cut through me deep. If I had never been around, would I had been condemned to oblivion?

Sunday, January 30, 2005

Ignorance or Stupidity?

My bandwidth exeeded last night and my very kind host restored and added me 200 more MB. :) He said that it will go back to the original 1GB next month. Now I'm thinking of getting my plan upgraded on my next due that is on March. But then again I was also thinking of getting my site down for a couple of months... I will have to think of this really really hard for the moment.

Anyway, I was to post an yesterday but I was damned pissed off by some post in the group. I really don't know if that guy is just ignorant of things around him or is just plain stupid. He goes like telling, I love candies but hate sweet stuff. Now tell me this is of a normal person or someone who lost his sanity?

Thursday, January 27, 2005

Worthless, Self-Proclaimed Theories.

From the news lately, there was another disease from chikens that humans could also adopt. And there seems to be quite few humans, maybe a handfull or less, who already had it. Then Bird's Flew came up to me because it's also came from chickens and humans could able to adopt them, when too much exposure to it. We might conclude evolution occoured here. Then a few moments later, SARS came up to me. SARS had several levels or degrees right? And so it evolves too. Whenever it evolves, it became more adoptive to mostly anything and more deadly too. So again, evolution occurs.

(The topic isn't evolution, by the way. Im just saying that disease evolves and could be adopted to almost anything vulnerable to it.)

What came up to me really after was "Where the heck did these diseases came from?!" So I started to take it one by one and started with the most popular and widespread disease ever, AIDS. So I started to ask? "Who the heck is dumb enough not to be satisfied with humans and decided to go fuck a monkey and to his luck, one with AIDS?!" Hey, that question went through scientific process! How? (1) AIDS came from monkeys. (2) AIDS could only be tranferred beween body fluids. e.g. Blood and Orgasm. Okay, so it's not that scientific but at least I took the time to think! If you could think of a better theory that this, you're much welcome to comment. :D And then, that made me laughing to myself for quite sometime until I remembered that before the SARS became widespread to China, the US bombed it. So I thought of, "Did the US created SARS and bombed China with it?" We could doubt that but since Bush is... well.. never mind, it's possible. And then I thought, there are more to things than what they seem. Diseases may come from one source. There might also be some secret agency that hybrids things genetically and Mutans might exists (yeah, X-men). So why did I arrived at the theory? Well, for a fact, there are genetically engineered vegetables and animals (chickens, rats, etc.) so there can also be a genetically modified human right? Although this is illegal, there might be. One can never say it can't happen. If you know the series Dark Angel, you would know what I mean. Yet, all thse were merely from my random thoughts.

Monday, January 24, 2005

I Cry...

Yes, obviously, I have a new layout. It's Twilight Drifter Version 2, "I Cry..."

So why I Cry...?

As most of my friends know me, I hardly cry. And some people, mostly those that hardly know me, branded me as ICE WOMAN just because they haven't seen me cry. Do I cry? As a matter of fact, I do. Everyone does. The only reason I cry is when I feel pain. Too much pain. Nevertheless, I do not.

Crying doesn't make you weak. Crying is just simply expressing yourself.

Of course, the credits. ^_^ Image was taken from the game, A3 (yes, from the official website itself) and the avatar template was from Bouncy Bubbles.Net.

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

You're In Love

I am quite fond of this song lately...


You're In Love
by Wilson Phillips

Open the door and come in
I'm so glad to see you my friend
Don't know how long it has been
Having those feelings again.

And now I see that you're so happy
And ooh, it just sets me free
And I'd like to see
Us as good of friends
As we used to be

Aah, my love, Aah
You're in love
That's the way
It should be
'Cause I want you to be happy
You're in love
And I know
That you're not in love with me
Ooh it's enough
For me to know
That you're in love
Now I'll let you go
'Cause I know
That you're in love

Sometimes it's hard to believe
That you're never coming back to me
I've had this dream that you'd always be by my side
Oh I could have died.

But now I see that you're so happy
And ooh, it just sets me free.
And I'd like to see
Us as good of friends
As we used to be


I tried to find you but you were so far away
I was praying that fate would bring you back to me
Someday, someday, someday... Ooh, you're in love

Ooh it's enough
For me to know
That you're in love
Now I'll let you go
'Cause I know
That you're in love

Saturday, January 15, 2005

Mind's Capacity

Sometimes, I find myself lost and wondering through questions I knew will never be answered. Even if I had given my life for some demon that would give me incomparable knowledge as I could answer my own question, I know would still be lost and wondering for more. People's capacity to think is what astonish me more than anything. I read from a theory somewhere that the most intelligent person could possibly just used up 10% of his mind's capacity to think. If it were true, then a perfect person that could used up all the 100% of his mind capacity, could be invulnerable at most cases. Sometimes, I even thought that the Earth had existed before and was destroyed by people because of technologies beyond comprehension that resulted them to start all over again from stone. Now that our technologies are moving closer to it's peak, it mught come true again. And so history would repeat itself. But then again, not. Maybe I just watched too much sci-fi typed anime to think this way.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Dear Hater

Dear Hater,

You know who you are and I hope you got this message and yeah, *pointing to the mood* you're annoying me.

Honestly, I don't know who you are and to be frank, I don't really care. Whoever you are, I thank you for spending too much time just reasearhing things about me, without any progress and trying to blackmail me with pure nonesense. I would honestly admit that you got my attention for a minute there, and so in favor of your time spent to me, I write this short message for you. Does that make you happy? Good. I just wanted you to know that your efforts for blackmailing me are undeniably worthless. You know what I think, I think you're just a pile of trash that doesn't have a life. Before you went around raging me, flaming me, telling me you hated me, might you want to ask yourself first, "How much do I know of Euri that I concluded that I hate her so much?" How come you claim you hate me where in fact, you do not even know a thing about me? And if you hated me so much, why tell me you hate me? Should you be somewhere else "away" from me so as you could not see my "dreadful face" that you’re disgusted so much. What would flaunting "I hate you!" do to you anyway? I would only ask you this, for the last time, LEAVE ME ALONE. Done said, may you have a nice day.

Blackmail: "Euri watch Hentai and Yaoi!"

My reply to the so-called blackmail: Yeah, I do. And so? Is that what you call a blackmail? Try harder.

Sunday, January 9, 2005

Golden Web Award 2003-2004

For once in my life I had deemed myself worthy of my own self-esteem. I may have lost it while drifting to this empty space as I had always been from the start, on which I dare not leave. Now, I might have had recovered mostly half of it but still half more lacks.

As I had written in Beyond Etenral, I had won myself a Golden Web Award, on which, undoubtly made my day. Who wouldn't be glad to received an unexpected award from an elite group of webmasters and designers that one aspires to belong. I could hardly believe it myself as I repeated verifying for my site if it really won such tremendous award. And to my surprize, same results, it did.

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