I Had a Bad Day

Monday, December 27, 2004 by Euri 0 comment
Dammit! How could you teach some asshole to make something if the fucking asshole himself don't want you to teach him how to do it in the process?! Punyeta naman eh! Tuturuan mo, mumurahin ka, hindi mo tuturuan mumurahin ka rin! Putang-ina!! Anong gusto niyong gawin ko?! Nananahimik na nga yung tao sa isang tabi ang dami paring nasasabi?! Can't I do anything right anymore?! Bullshit! I had a bad day. And don't wanna talk about it.

Any Belief Worth Having Must Survive Doubt

Wednesday, December 15, 2004 by Euri 0 comment
I haven't really finished my project yet but then, business comes first. Seriously, this morning, he called me and asked me if I could make a site on a rush. I said I can make a site on a rush but I do not accept those kinds of request at the moment because I'm on the process of finishing my project first! And at the end, I was talked out on making it. (*ugh!* My project!!) Then he came over *yey!* and gave me the details. To my surprise, the site doesn't really have anything of interest for a content. I'm not really good at thinking "what else could I add to make this damn site draw visitors" so it took me practically a half day just making it. If only the one who wanted the site was there to give the details it would be done in a hour or two! But then again, I'm well compensated to do that. That was suppose to be some guy's final project. When I think of it, a website? For a final project? Heck I would do anything to change that software project to j

Vanity: A New Look

Sunday, December 12, 2004 by Euri 0 comment
I made a new look for this journal. ^^ I spent literally the whole day just to make this as how you see it now. Glad it turned out exactly as I planned it too look. How did you find it then? Of course, the credits, would I forget? The brushes I used were from Annika von Holdt , Truly Sarah and Miss M . You may not take the images. They were my photography, my property and my art. In short, MINE. Please do not take them. No exceptions.

Bandwidth Limit Exeeded

Saturday, November 27, 2004 by Euri 0 comment
My site was down again, so I resorted here for my journalizing. This time, it's a "Bandwith Limit Exceeded" thing. I wasn't really expecting that much visitors this month. I don't know maybe it's because people have nothing much to do since most school had just started a few weeks before. I had recived a lot of e-mails lately from ramdom people. I really need time to read all of them. More to that is I had tons of e-mail accounts. And because of that, I decided to trim down my e-mails. We had our sportfest these past 3 days including today. I'm not a sporty type, so I just sat at some bench and just yell "Go! Black Scoprions Go!" and went around eating this and that, as usual. Btw, Khei was the champ in the badminton tournament! Congrats Khei! :D And what else, yeah, I lost my game - bowling. I don't play sports. :P People know that. It's just a matter of having representatives for that certain game. And besides, I was forced to join. I d

Brings Back Memories

Friday, November 26, 2004 by Euri 0 comment
I saw him a while ago at school. He pass by me and gave me back the cd he borrowed. We had treated each other as friends since the time we broke up but his attitude of not talking to me infront of many people still haven't changed. He acted as if he really didn't want to let the people know we knew each other. When we were still together, I felt this thing like he was ashamed of me. Whenever we are walking, he always went on ahead and left me walking alone. Then he would yell at me telling me I walk oo slow where in fact, he walks too fast. When I tell him that, he would always say it's hot. And stupidly, I always just give a nod for an answer. But deep down my heart, I cry. I had always told myself to just forget him but I couldn't do it. I always keep myself busy to avoid remembering things such as that but no use... I wanted to be by him again but then the troma of just leaving me without any good reasong still lives within me so thought twice again. Another thing, h

An Introduction

Thursday, November 25, 2004 by Euri 0 comment
This LJ account is just a continuation of my other deleted journal. (Some of you knows it.) This journal, as the other one, might be a little too offensive to some people. But nevertheless, I just return what people give me, in double. If you give me kindness, I will give you back kindness with respect. If you give me insults, I will give you back a smile and my pity along side. I need not insult you because you’re just one of those people who just misunderstood me. But do not try my patience. I may have long patience for other things but I will never tolerate people who’ve gone too far. I’m not scaring you or bragging that I’m scary because I’m not. I’m just being true to myself. Read at your own discretion.

The Pagans at Ancient Roman Period

Wednesday, August 25, 2004 by Euri 0 comment
I just watched the movie King Arthur. The version of that story was based on history and is not like the original Arthurian Legends which is both fictional and mythical. I really don't get why Romans of the ancient times gets easily carried away with their beliefs which are mostly mislead... Remembered when my CF teacher told us a story when Christians were burned to death, crucified, fed to lions etc. by the Romans back then before their emperor, the one who introduced them to Christianity, sat to the throne (can't remember which emperor was that... So many names in the Bible to remember them all... :P). But there came a time, the Romans had fully accepted Christianity as their religion, and they tried to expand their empire through Britain (this was around 300 A.D. if my memory serves me right). Even though it's other way around, still, the same brutality was shown and even more inhuman than before. Pagans and non-believers were tortured and treated as slaves by Romans in

Here They Go Again

Wednesday, June 30, 2004 by Euri 0 comment
I had received mails from Christians saying things like, I'll be burned down in Hell while they enjoy themselves up in Heaven. And my reply to all of you would be, Thanks you for the mail and I already know I'm going to Hell (if it exists though) when I die. Look, we respected every Christian beliefs and listened to them whenever they try to preach us and things as such. Why couldn't you Christians do the same thing and listen to what we have to say first rather than telling us that we'll be in Hell for disbelieving before we even try to speak our minds. That was the most reason why a lot of non-Christians writes things like that. We tried our best to listen to your every word and when we got the chance to speak our mind, you damn us and tell us that we are devil's instruments. Most of you considered science as a devil's instrument. If then, why use the Internet? Why use computers? Aren't they product of science which you people call a product of devil's

I Believe, Because I Believe

Friday, June 18, 2004 by Euri 0 comment
I had read this once in an article - I believe, because I believe. And here are my questions: Why do you need to believe when you don't know what to believe? What was it that he believed that caused him to believe that I don't know if I would believe because I don't know what to believe? And why does he still believes that something he believe but doesn't know what that is he believed? And should I also believed that something he believed that I do not believe to make me also believe what he believed? And if I should believed that something he believed that I doubt I would believe would it make a difference when I believed that what he is believing is right? And when I found out what was it that he believed that I am starting to doubt believing, would he still be believing what he was believing or also stopped believing because he, too, himself don't know why he believes what he believes and just believed because he believed? Never mind my question. You'll

Destiny and Free Will

Wednesday, June 16, 2004 by Euri 0 comment
Tomorrow would be the start of our prelim exam and tonight, I MUST study. My grades are a bit... uh... just don't ask. Now, I'm starting to get a bit worried of our exam tomorrow... Would I pass? *sighs* Btw, I read the "An Atheist on Judgment Day" a while ago... O.O Totally speechless. That reminds me, we were having our Rizal class a while ago, our instructor, at the middle of her discussion, said that all is pre-destined for us by God . Then one statement came to my mind, "If it is then pre-destined, then why do we still need the so-called free will He gave us?" Then, one of my classmates asked, " If so, why did He gave other people useless parents. " (translated, but the same thought and rudeness of his question wasn't changed. By his term of "useless", he meant "irresponsible".) Then I thought, "Quite what I had in mind but not exactly." Our instructor then said, "God destined those parents to be good

The Story of a Young Girl

Friday, June 04, 2004 by Euri 0 comment
She was a child who was given the talent of art. She draws things all her life. Mostly, when she was young, she draws figures she idolizes, like anime. If not, collages of something beyond anyone's explanation. People may say she lives in her own world. If you actually lives with her in the same house, you would think she is a zombie or a dead child - but you know she isn't. She seldom sleeps at that young age. Her skin is pale and her hands are cold. She has a short hair about shoulder length. She seldom talks, only if you would asked her. She wasn't this silent when she was a year younger. She usually talks to almost everyone and plays with almost anyone too. She was always teased as worthless and weak by her school mates. And to her teachers, she is an intelligent child - because of her capability of knowing things beyond her age much like feeling things such as deep emotions. But, she care less of them. She reads fiction and non-fiction books that are unsuitable for an

Holy War

Monday, May 31, 2004 by Euri 0 comment
A while ago, I watched the news. There was this hotel at Saudi Arabia that was under terrorist attack. they said that 3 Filipinos died in that incident. And the terrorists were called "Jerusalem Brigade". Then this came into my mind. Isn't killing against Christian's God will as well as Muslim's Allah? Then why is there a thing called a "Holy War"? In my point of view, they shouldn't call it "Holy" if it's a war. A war only gives two results, dead people and people who wants revenge for their dead families. Why do they need to fight because of some beliefs? Why don't they just leave each other be of their beliefs and live their own life. A war is inhuman. It only brings tears, pain and more bloodshed. Kaya hindi na natapos yang "Holy War" na yan eh. Sino bang promotor niyan?

What Happens When the Dark Enters the Light?

Friday, May 14, 2004 by Euri 0 comment
Chette Posted: EURI - Eto tanong ko lang... What happens when a Light enters the dark? What's the answer? And.. after you answer that, Answer this one too... Now.. What happens when the dark enters the Light? My reply: Before answering, why the question? I really didn't get these question right so there would be possibilities that my answers would be quite... unrelated...?? The first question was What happens when a Light enters dark? If you would take it in literal meaning, my answer would be, the light will still shine in the dark. Assuming that a small matched lighted in a cold dark room, that match would provide a little light and warmth in that cold, dark room. But the darkness might swallow that tiny bit of light afterwards. And the second question was, What happens when the dark enters the Light? Taking into literal meaning as well, if the dark would enter the light, the darkness would fade. Did I answer the question? If I did, would you answer my question too? Assuming

A Dream…

Friday, May 07, 2004 by Euri 0 comment
I can't seem to sleep that night I wonder why. I rose up to my feet and walked around at an unfamiliar room furnished with several antique Victorian styled furniture. The room was in white and gold, its windows, adorned with elegant curtains flowing down the fully carpeted floors. I suddenly thought of going out the terrace for the view – it was breathtaking. The whole city was filled with lights as if tiny fireflies in the darkest of forest. The wind then blew to my face as I close my eyes and feel the whispering breeze. I opened my eyes again and walked back inside and closed the terrace doors. I pulled down the rope that held the curtain to cover the doors as I unclothed myself, reached for the dresser, pulled out a dress and got changed. I suddenly noticed myself grasping the door's knob, slowly turning it and leaving the room. As I left the room, I went pass a hall with beautiful art collection lined up beside each room's doors. The walls were ornamented with differe

Why?

Friday, May 07, 2004 by Euri 0 comment
Sometimes, there are people, though we just have known them for a little while, they've already taught us so many things and showed us a glimpse of what the world is to us, and after that, they just leave without any good reason. Even if we don’t want to, they still leave us alone in a dark room, weeping… and after that, another one will come, will wipe our eyes dry, will make us feel happy for a while, and after we've learned to love them, they will leave us again... Whenever people say that, "Life is so Unfair" somehow, something inside me agrees. Why do we need to stand after we fall? Why do we need to meet a lot of people and after a while they will just leave us. Why do people just come into our lives and just leave us after we have grown to love them? Why do we need to smile after we cried so hard after they leave? Why do we tend to love someone to whom we knew at the very first time that that someone we love, loves someone else?

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